0922

Today I'm thing about balance, just when I take a shower, and the words that father said. Standing on his position, I can realize why he always talk to me in that way. But I have my reason to refuse at least half of his kindness, because his words are not all suitable to me. We are very different in many ways, personality, characteristics, the way we think, and so many other thing I cannot point out rapidly. However, the most familiarity between us is patience. I don't mean temper. I'm not patient but I am good tempered, but my father is totally not. Anyway, I find my goal in the way of Ph.D regardless of the need and want from my father or the way he promise to give me. It is just certainly concerning about my own careers in the future and then enhancing the possibility of attaining my dream, having a good wife, lovely children and family.

murmur

Got something additional crap today? I don't know what will happen in the next minute, but I do strike out the troubles happened since morning. Once I feel anxious to things annoying me, I will, at least when I am aware of that, tell myself just calm down and observe what's going on. These things don't have real bad on you usually. It is just that you are feeling bad, and the truth is that negative emotion affects your act. Therefore, next time when you feel not good, just take a deep breath, walk around or think carefully about what's going and what's the next. Then you'll take your life to the normal status.

June 16

I`m trying to be easier and get more comfort with my mind. Especially when you are confusing about how a girl can make you go astray. Tell yourself, don`t get lost and don`t lose your mind. Trying to be better and trying to be more better!

Long time

It`s such a long time to visit this blog. It`s obviously that the reason for that is the original thinking about open this blog: practicing my English skill hahaha!!! It`s pretty hard to show your thinking and emotion in English, or, I mean an language instead of your native one. But I think maybe it`s time to reopen this blog again to enhance my English skill in need. You`ll never know that to explain an economic intuition in an academical article is very difficult. And the worst part is that I`m getting used in that... I`ll talk some of my life. And I think maybe I`ll be better!!!!

Passion

I can`t see the passion between us.

I thought we were good friends, but now I`m not sure.

I can see your soul by your behavior, but you can`t see my soul.

I feel tired now. If there`s a day that I can repick my passion, I`ll call you.

Now you make me fuxking sick.

I can talk to you as usual. It doesn`t mean that I take our relationships without importantance. If we four want to have a very very long time together, I think it`s the best choice. See, That`s the choice I first decide. So don`t worry about my graduate test.  I`m smarter than you think. The only one thing to worry about is my patience and rationality.

I`m tired out. I wanna cry, I wanna fight, I wanna say my secrets.

You drive me crazy, or I do it myself.

No matter what, I love you. That`s what I want to say.

WTF!!!!!!